This is where Jesus wanted me

Only 8 months after our wedding we were both serving in the church when our marriage took a hit that I wasn’t sure we’d recover from.

At this point in our marriage I really didn’t know where to turn. I felt like there was no one I could talk to about what was really going on. We were both faithful servants in the church and, with my trust issues, I worried if anyone knew what was really going on we would both be judged.

I did the only thing I knew to do... pray and fast over my marriage and try to figure out how to deal without letting anyone into our issues. What I’ve learned is that is right where the enemy wants us to be- suffering silently feeling alone and isolated!

When Jonathan told me that he was going to start going to CR, in my head I was saying “great that is exactly what you need to do!”

In 1 Corinthians 13:5 it says love keeps no record of wrongs. I knew if I really loved my husband like I said I did then I needed to offer him the same forgiveness Jesus gives and still gives me over and over again. To my husband’s surprise when he asked me about going to CR I said “okay i'll go.” Little did I know is that night I would hear a testimony on how CR healed a couple’s marriage.

As I sat in the back row with tears in my eyes I knew this is where Jesus wanted me to be. Just keep coming back is what they say and I did just that! I decided to join a step study and began working the steps. I went through the motions for a while and started praying and asking God why isnt this helping like I thought it would. Yet again the Lord reminded me that you have to be real to get what you need. I finally opened up to my sponsor in more detail. Through sharing with her and others I grew to trust this was a safe place where I could be open & vulnerable.

Today our marriage is stronger than ever and we both lead our ministry’s Landing (Celebrate Recovery’s Teen ministry) where we are helping students come out of their isolation and find hope and healing from their hurts, hangups and habits!”

Thanks for sharing letting us share.
Faith and Jonathan